My cousin dying has been really bad for my anxiety. I feel really bad because I’m trying to chill and like be normal because I don’t want to be broken again. I hate depression and how much of a toll it takes on my head. I also feel bad because I’ve been trying to hang out with my friend and I’ve been really spacey and lost. I’m just so lost. It’s felt like an eternity since he died. I want to fall back on alcohol, but I’ll just drink myself to death. This is hard I’m having a really hard time but I’m maintaining composure and putting on a semi-fake face but it’s killing me. I don’t know what to do. I’m really lost.
It’s weird how much one person can change u
And it only gets worse
I hope not
Just keep being beautiful and you’ll be fine